Songtext Jealous King-Iso

Jealous

I've never been an envious person in my life, man
Never been jealous of nobody
But like
I did hear a comment from Mackenzie the other day
About like sometimes you do slip into those envious moments that people gon' have to deal with
The mental health shit we deal with, you know what I mean
Like how do you not feel that

Juxtaposition of the weak and the strong
In a world full of so many people
But seem so alone
I fall into comparing myself to few
So elated I've waited with nothing else to do
I sit at bay while the ocean moves
Transparent opaque but we're both so blue
Look to space, lost within it, seems oh so gloom
Both dark for a star, where I go's no moon
And I feel like fighting
Betrayed by God and I don't feel right crying
While everybody's smiling but
I'm real life dying to live a life like you do
With mental illness nonexistent, pain is well but few too
Taking some shots like my pistol out
You can just tell the bartender to send more rounds
Pop me an Ativan so I can simmer down
Someone save me before I fucking hit the ground
I know what I feel is envy now
People don't feel what I feel and that's really wild
Invisible while I'm standing right in the crowd
When they said ignorance is bliss I get it now

I'm jealous of you
I'm so jealous
Damn I'm jealous of you
So jealous of you
Yep I'm jealous of you
I'm so jealous
Damn I'm jealous of you
So jealous
Jealous, yeah

You ain't never dealt with this pain, yeah
All sunshine no rain, yeah
Your life's so clean, no stain, yeah
Ain't no stress, no strain, yeah
Never dealt with this pain, yeah
Fuck it, I'll kill brain, yeah
Life's so clean, no stain, yeah
Ain't no stress, no strain, yeah
So jealous

Chugging this 40 while holding this Tec
Jellysickle like E-40 & Tech
How the fuck he don't feel this? Mean no disrespect
I'm as cold as a corpse, I'm a ghost in the flesh
Society has it at home to be next
Preachers out there think the bozo's a threat
For [?] like the homie I guess
For sure depressed that ball will not be ahead
Insomnia when you going to bed
And searching for love, I ain't holding my breath
I don't wanna answer my phone or a text
But it's 3A
M and I'm scrolling my thread
All of this fame but still lonely as heck
Don't check on me but I'll still loan you a check
One day you'll be woke to this cloak, how I'm dressed
By then, at the way King Iso'll be dead
Two baby boys, why I give all my passion
And I stay driven, though mentally crashing
Some people just do not get it I'm asking
Is it wrong to feel this envy I'm having
I'm saving lives I didn't imagine
Got to be strong, my strength isn't lasting
Here is the sad plot twist I've established
Iso's a hero that wished it could happen

I'm jealous of you
I'm so jealous
Damn I'm jealous of you
So jealous of you
Yep I'm jealous of you
I'm so jealous
Damn I'm jealous of you
So jealous
Jealous, yeah

You ain't never dealt with this pain, yeah
All sunshine no rain, yeah
Your life's so clean, no stain, yeah
Ain't no stress, no strain, yeah
Never dealt with this pain, yeah
Fuck it, I'll kill brain, yeah
Life's so clean, no stain, yeah
Ain't no stress, no strain, yeah
Jealous

If that psychotic amphetamine won't stabilize her ass they say
Can't be alright
Can't relate to any are that around
My life is a circus, I feel like the clown
You gave me this life and I'm turning it down
I'm sick of this shit, now I'll see myself out
I was feeling that I would start the car and I'll close the garage (Garage)
So many thoughts form in my mind
But I won't say [?]
Cause you won't understand
You weren't dealt this hand
I try not to be mad at you but I can't correct my statue
When your happiness is at your limb
My energy can't match you
Tell me
Tell me why?

Pain, yeah
Rain, yeah
Stay here
Strain here
Pain here
Brain, yeah
Stay, yeah
Strain, yeah
Jealous