Songtext Fear Nf

Fear

Hello darkness, my old friend (Hello)
Knocking at my door again (*Knock knock knock*)
Begging me to come outsi-ide
Let you back into my life
Now, usually I'd be strong enough
To lock the doors and keep 'em shut
But not today, I'm desperate (Desperate)
So go ahead and come on in
So go ahead and come on in
So go ahead and come on in

OCD is worse than ever, hands are bleedin'
Maybe I should take the pills—don't (Woah)
Know what's goin' on with me
Some days I actually think I might be schizo (Woah)
Frantic, prolly not, but even writing this is makin' me begin to spiral, oh God (Oh, oh, oh)
Made a promise to mys?lf I wouldn't let the fear back in, but th?n I did though (Woah)
Told the world that I was sick of runnin', then went back to runnin', what a joke (Woah)
Disappointed, yeah, me too, I thought I finally had finally made a breakthrough, guess not (Oh, oh, oh)
It's the same song and dance, you've all seen it before
Darkness holds out his hand, then we walk to the floor
Every decision made isn't mine anymore
Like a puppet with strings, I just don't have a choiceWhat's the truth? What's a lie?
Help me God, help me Lord
Face your fears, dry your eyes
Grandma died, what's the point?
Lost the keys, lost my hope, lost my will, lost my joy
Lost a friend, lost my home, lost my faith, lost my voice

(Desperate)
Standing back, watching my mansion burn to ash while I (*Laughter*)
Hold the gas can, asking God if He started this fire
Is this what You wanted? Is this what You wanted?
Make all my hopes and my dreams come to life just to lay them to rest
Is this what You wanted? Is this what You wanted?
Give me a false sense of peace just to show me what peace really is
Is this what You wanted?

On the verge, on the edge
(Is this what You wanted?)
Petrified, scared to death
(Is this what You wanted?)
Prayin' to God, desperate
(Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)
(Is this what You wanted?)
Hangin' on by a thread
(Is this what You wanted?)
Empty heart, nothin' left
(Is this what You wanted?)
Breakin' down, spiralin'
(Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)
(Is this what You wanted?)

Standing back (Is this what You wanted?)
Watching my mansion (Is this what You wanted?)
Burn to ash (Is this what You wanted?) while I (Oh, oh, oh)
(What You wanted, is this what You wanted?)
Hold the gas (Is this what You wanted?) can
Asking God if (Is this what You wanted?)
He started this fire (Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)