Songtext Hard to maintain Blaze

Hard to maintain

***Thinkin' 'bout the time that's gone by
Lettin' out all pain I've held deep down inside.
There ain't no doubt there's been hell in my life.
Just found out about my pops through a letter he writes
Been locked down but didn't forget about the kids and the wife
Tears nearly drown the man's hope of one day seeing the light
Up until now been fightin' those tears will Lord-given might
Searchin' for a route that'll hopefully lead him one day to the sunshine
But of as for now, the pain still pierces the man's mind
Like the shell of a round
Comin' from the barrel of a cop's nine.
It's hard to maintain when the pain
Is deep down inside.
Living in a life full of rain,
But still searching for the sunshine.(2x)

***Just got more news from a homie who's feeling them jailhouse blues
I know when it's two in the morning and you feelin lonely,
Ain't no need to worry,
Cause your homie still down for you.
And when them other cats turned their backs
Just remember who still kept it true
Ain't no reason to be living in the past
Just keep your mind focused and you'll make it through
Forget about the bogus,hocus pocus
And them shady busters that you thought you knew
They ain't nothing but pests like locust who'll keep bugging 'til the day they done with you...
You know the rest
I must confess
About the many homies we thought were true
''cause when it came down to the test
Many jet
Leaving us standing with just a few
But you know the Lord blessed
Telling you I got your back
So forget about the crew
So take the load off your chest and lay your head to rest
And remember your homie still hold it down for you...
It's hard to maintain when the pain
Is deep down inside.
Living in a life full of rain,
But still searching for the sunshine...(2x)
One love...