Songtext Rhodonite and grief La Dispute

Rhodonite and grief

Lifetimes lived and died
For a moment in the turnaround
I was waiting with the car in drive
Watched you hurry on across the parking lot
The image of your life in your mind fades
And I could see an anxious strength in you
Brave the borne pain
Waiting by front door on your cellphone
Summer at the convalescent home

"Kill me by surprise," you said
"I don't want to stay alive
To watch the words go first like hers"
Lifetimes lived and died
Lifetimes lived and died

In the winter on the porch, in the window of the door
I watch in the kitchen with your notebook open
Frozen in the cold when I come back with wine
At the end of every long night
Take a moment you need to just breathe
Whole days in treatment plants
Aphasic patients, apraxia of speech
Weeks and months go by like this
We function on routines
We sleep, we eat, we read
We eat, we drink, we sleep
We keep her picture on the fridge
I keep a rabbit toy for kids
You give me strength to fix myself
I gave you tokens, toys, and gifts to help you grieve

You said, "Kill me by surprise again
"I don't want to stay alive
To watch the words go first like hers"

Winter, we huddled in anger
Spring, sadness sinking in
Summer, accept all departures
Then autumn, start again
Winter, we huddled in anger
Spring, sadness sinking in
Summer, accept all departures
Then autumn, start again

I drove around for hours
For gifts to help you heal
Memories we parted once
The seasons of our grief
Rhodonite for stress relief
Promethazine for sleep
A rabbit toy for children
My deep condolences
Rhodonite for stress
Promethazine for sleep
A rabbit toy for kids
My deep condolences
Lifetimes lived and died