Songtext Delusional Tech N9Ne

Delusional

[Verse 1]
Yeah... Like this (like this) Ima drink this henn, Ima keep this grin,
but if you look at nina closly I'm tryna contain this beast within.
I know some of yall already knowin that I got alotta cheese to spend
but that don't change the fact I go insane I gotta heap of sins please begin.

I saw a glimspse in all of this when I was just yay tall and I pictured yall and it wall to wall
but they all said I was just Delusional but the people startin callin us
and I'm ballin tough but the crawlin rough and I never though of stuff with saw enough.
What the problem is now I got em here tellin all these kids I'm the K.O.D
and they pumpin up the volume and listenen hard when I give my heart is it Delusional.
When I'm thinkin Ima boss in the biz but I'm lost and I fake it that I'm off in the lid
but they pay the cost when it is dark at the crib

Some say that if tell them to hate my people are at the gate ready for sealin your fate
that is up for debate cause when I make my music ain't no evil from mister yates callin me
A cult leader I don't really know but Ima fosho heater wickedness commin from mine rove
they could blow me but the folks wanna soul see us at the bottom with the devil look around
and it be no N9na they say I lead em to evil like I was jimmy jones and feedin the people
when I bleed in the steeple the reason they seizin me ain't no decreasin my ego my powers for good
I think would I shrink if somebody took away how good I ink but that would never happen
I'm makin it with the rappin but they want me to collapse and when I could I sink

[Chorus - Nikkiya]
I hope I find what I'm looking for, maybe I should drink just a little more.
Delusional I'm fightin but I'm losin feel like we offer up confusion Hear me!
My rights and wrongs are questioned in my life and confusion seems to read alibi.
Delusional I'm feelin like I don't belong, feel like I'm tellin you to do wrong hear me!

[Verse 2]
She feel like I'm, gonna make them hate because I was around and kick it and make them babys
and now that I made it gotta escape them daily and that's crazy
cause all I'm doin is makin the industry pay me
but when I show my face feelin everythings great did a show then we ate
then I'm outta that state she said I'm a good provider but daddy of the year
man I'm outta that race how I compensate for the losses they get often dates that's too personal we'll stop the tape

[Chorus - Nikkiya]
I hope I find what I'm looking for, maybe I should drink just a little more.
Delusional I'm fightin but I'm losin feel like we offer up confusion Hear me!
My rights and wrongs are questioned in my life and confusion seems to read alibi.
Delusional I'm feelin like I don't belong, feel like I'm tellin you to do wrong hear me!

[Verse 3]
They say I'm seein things but everybody know I'm bein things we dem kings like it
or not we runnin this gotta lotta hype cause I wanna spit and I come to grip on the fith
you gotta know techs never gonna miss I know I might be a little psycie
but its nightly and brightly inside of me makin me a little frightening rippin it with the right team
I bring hella light when resighting when its all said and done I'm sickened and heavened
caused this a damned reverend ALL 6'S AND 7'S

[Chorus - Nikkiya]
I hope I find what I'm looking for, maybe I should drink just a little more.
Delusional I'm fightin but I'm losin feel like we offer up confusion Hear me!
My rights and wrongs are questioned in my life and confusion seems to read alibi.
Delusional I'm feelin like I don't belong, feel like I'm tellin you to do wrong hear me!